Now that I’m 30 I feel this need to begin making some changes.
…This website will be changing…
I’m going to write what I want to write about here and not worry about my mother reading it or my father reading it. If they don’t like they can deal with it on their own terms. This is my space and I want to use it. When I write here I don’t feel like I’m writing for an audience like I do on LiveJournal where I have my “friends” list. If someone reads this site, that’s great, if not I’m perfectly fine with that.
I also have some design changes planned for this site. It’s going to be converted all to css, probably using wordpress as a back end. This way when I am tired of the layout I can just change it easily. This is a project that will likely last me until this summer so don’t expect something new tomorrow. It’s something I’ve been mulling over for some time now I just need to find the time to implement it.
…My home life is changing…
It is a very likely possibility that my father will be moving in with my sisters and I in March. I will say it right now I am not happy about this decision but we do not really have much of a choice for several reasons. My sisters will both be away for most of the time my father is there and I will be spending more and more time over at Gary’s. I think this will make Gary a happy man 
…My love life is changing…
Gary and I will have been together for a year this Sunday. One year. It’s amazing to me that we found each other. Your life can change for you in one instant. It can surprise you when you found something you never really knew you needed. We are talking about moving in together this year. Of course I’m nervous because of the fact that my previously relationship with Steve failed but I think that this time things are different enough to make it work. We both have jobs we love, we both have a lot of friends, we go out and do things together and on our own. It’s a much healthier relationship on a whole. So this is a good thing. Actually this is a fucking fantastic thing!
…My body is changing…
Ok so as lame as it sounds, I’m 30 and I need to accept that fact that my body is not going to just magically morph itself into a Victoria Secret model. I know! I was surprised to when I came to that realization. So I need to accept the fact that I’m fat and I need to lose weight. Don’t worry about it. I can call myself fat, I’m allowed. It’s not a bad thing having curves at all and I’m not worried about the way I look as I am with the way I feel. That’s a big difference. I could care less about the number on a scale. Hell if I felt fit and healthy at 250lbs then I would stay at 250lbs. But logic tells me I won’t feel fit and healthy at 250lbs so I need to make sure I never weigh 250lbs.
So I joined a gym this week. Work has been really busy with many 12 hour days this week and I have floor hockey on Monday nights so my gym routine will be starting either tomorrow or Tuesday. I literally have to walk by it every day I go home so what’s an hour of my day. I also feel better when I work out. The bonus is the fact that it is an all women’s gym so I don’t have to feel like I’m ever there to impress anyone.
And that folks are some of the changes you can expect to hear from me over the next little while. For those of you that read me on LJ, you will no longer be seeing as many duplicate posts.
