Can’t sleep…
Thursday, August 11th, 2005 ~ 1:22 am
Of course not. Tomorrow is much too exciting so instead what am I doing? Listening to the “music that no one must know that I love or else I may no longer be cool” and looking at my site stats.
You see, I honestly convince myself that no one reads this site except for Gary when he has time because he sees me naked. Yes this makes sense in my world so let’s leave it at that. But then every couple of months I look at my stats and realize that other people actually read this journal. It kind of amazes me that total strangers would even care what I have to say but I’m also a bit flattered. So for those silent readers out there…I hope you enjoy what I write. If not, well then you’re probably one of the many that never come back 
Oh and all comments are set to moderate so that I don’t get a bunch of spammers.
What I do find a tad odd is that people from my past who I have not met, but were friends with my ex, read this journal fairly regularly. They read it when my ex doesn’t and they know he doesn’t. He would rather email me or chat with me on some IM or other to see how things are going on in my world. I give him credit for this since it would be easy to keep “tabs” on me through here, but he has chosen another route. One that actually involves interacting with me.
Things ended well with us, we are not bitter and there is no hatred. It didn’t work out, we tried and the relationship failed, not us. He’s a good guy, I’m a good girl, our lives have moved on. Yet people in his world, who have never actually met me because they live so far away, read and keep tabs. I wonder if they tell him what I write? Do they actually enjoy what I talk about here or is it pure human curiosity, like watching a train wreck, that makes them come back?
Hell, maybe I’m just an incredibly interesting gal. With a new job, an awesome man in my life, great friends, a wonderful dog….or maybe not. I’m guessing I’ll never know and I’m OK with that. I will write and they will read and the world will keep on spinning.
