Partners
Monday, December 6th, 2004 ~ 12:06 am
It is strange how you thought you cared about a person and then realize one day that you simply do not anymore. There is no warning, no traffic lights telling you to go, slow down or stop. Instead you wake up one morning and you have not thought about them for a day, a week and then a month. Time slides through your fingers like rain.
At one time jealousy burned through me, quick, bright and beautiful. I fed the monster for a day or two, letting it give me drive. I laugh at that girl now and wonder how sad she must have been to let something so trivial bother her. A face that has come apart in the wind, someone I can’t even picture clearly nor have any desire to do so. Let them live their black plastic lives, filling their cups with vinegar and blood. I would rather have blue skies, sandpaper kisses and a book in the park.
People replace one another through the dance. One partner picks you up and twirls you, giggling like children, the next boy steps on your feet, awkward and unsure. The third, fourth, tenth, twentieth partner glides with you but the steps are always just a bit off. It’s that last partner, the one I am waiting for. The one who knows that I do not understand how to let someone else lead, but will show me that by not pushing or pulling, by moving together can we make the dance beautiful.
